Living Happily.

I wish I could say "no thank you" to responsibilities. I would love to be able to see the world for what it is. Do we honestly say "we are living" by conforming to a job & every day routines that we have been doing for years. instead of wanting to see things that matter. Some will think I'm immature or crazy for even thinking such a thing. Regardless, I want to travel, meet amazing people, & see the world for what it really is. I wouldn't restrict myself to calling myself a 'dreamer' because honestly, it's so much more to me than that. I feel like it's more of a realistic thought personally. We as humans have narrowed life down to money.. Constantly I hear, "he got me flowers" or "she bought me this", is this really what matters in an intimate relationship?! Maybe I have no room to judge since I'm not in a relationship; but it seems silly to me. I guess I'm strolling off subject because I am not even talking about relationships in this whole spill I am giving. I am narrowing it down to what I believe should matter.

I want experiences, not materialistic things.

So here are somethings I have recently seen that keep myself "in-check" with what matters. (TRUE happiness is a CHOICE. & Personal reactions to ANY situation is a CHOICE! Negative reactions result as a Negative person! And I am proud to say, I have been a negative person in the past & I made conscious decision to change. & have become a stronger, happier, positive person who just wants to LIVE)

 This is what make me want to live without responsibilities. I want to explore..everything! My goal is to always keep my free spirit mind set!

This one below should keep anyone in check that.. When you complain about "how horrible your life is" & "how you think it was the 'worst day ever' " & so on, remember this video: 'LIVE DAY-TO-DAY'
Please click on the link & watch the video. I personally believe its powerful!

Progeria..children with higher spirits then most healthy adults

i feel like i have done alot of waiting, waiting, & more waiting.

I simply can not wait to be able to listen to my music in my car. I hope as soon as my foot gets better that I will drive for hours and listen to countless songs!

pour that heart out girl..

Right when I graduated high school, I was scared as could be, as was everyone. Everything from the friends to the daily rountine of high school so something I had so accepted and at the time claimed I was ready to give up. I can't believe three years has already flown by and as much as I am ashamed to say I have not done half of as much as I wanted to accomplish within this past three years. I thought the drama would be over and done with and I accidentally start it without thinking at all, it gets taken out of contexts..I say the wrong things and then it gets all jumbled up in my face. I thought I had found someone with a deep connection and its turned into an arguing fisaco, pulling people in i never thought had anything to do with it. People will always judge and has some thought or judgemental opinion of me & Im over it. I am sick of knowing a huge number of people in Birmingham, I need a new scene. I feel like I can I am missing people that will never come back and its time I fully accept it and live my life like I would if they were still here! I have no idea what the hell I want anymore. I use to know every detail about myself and the details just keep changing and I can not figure out who I am. I get pulled into letting other people judge me that don't know me at all or my steps in life it has taken me to get to this point. I need a breather from people, responsibility, and anything that leads me to negative thoughts.

I do know I need to leave alabama, and get out of this box I have confined myself to. I want to feel the world, not just live it. I am sick of confined to being in my early 20's and just staying in my southern coulture. I want to be out of my box. I'm getting ready to move to the next biggest chapter of my life! And I want to do it with ONLY the people that have stuck by me through all the my life! I am excited, scared, and proud of myself for finally making this decision with myself & my family. It will be awhile before I can accomplish leaving but as soon as I can walk, I am walking out of Alabama with a head held high knowing I lived to the fullest here and its time to experience something different and new. I am finally ready! I have had little things that have made me realize I need to move on. I've lived in the same 20 mile radius my whole life, and I am finally adult and can make my own decisions and here it is!

as i lay dying

dave matthews band



PHOTO time!

I got my hair colored today at school by a sweet,sweet girl named Kayla whom we all call KITTY! She was so much fun & we def. bonded. I enjoyed every second of it.

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After

I Love It!

Here are so pictures that were taken at my Mamaw & Papaw's house as a going away party for my cousin, Colton. He left for Germany for an intership! Good Luck Colton, Love YOU!

Here are some pictures I have yet to upload & I can no longer stand it I had to post them!

A beautiful Sunset right before Night! If you look closely that little dot on the left picture is the Moon!!!

& The 2nd picture is my friend Omar.

(Picture Below..3rd) This has to be one of my favorite pictures I have ever taken! This is Omar again.

Fourth Picture:

Omar, Me, & Charlie.

This was taken right before Charlie left for Maine. Miss you Charlie!

This is my friend Thomas, performing at Cafe Frienza!

An awesome picture that Omar took!

& Last BUT NOT LEAST......

My Baby girl ZiGGY! She is my favorite. She is ALWAYS ready to be my model!

Recently, things have been crazy & up and down. I am hoping things that are somewhat negative in my life will come down. I look foward to going to my Orthopedics appointment on Thursday! I am also looking foward to going to Accupuncture, which is fabulous for anyone is who thinking about going! She puts needles in certain pressure points, turns out the lights & leaves me in a tiny room and shuts the door! Let me tell you this is the most relaxing naps I have EVER had! Talk about feeling extremely relaxed when you leave!

[I am hoping that THIS week I will be able to post pictures of my new nephew that will be coming this week. I know my step sister-in-law is ready for him to meet the family! I am sure she is exhausted & so ready to meet him & I'm sure my step-brother can't wait either]

I got new plugs that I am crazy about

Here is my baby, Ziggy who is sleeping on a pillow like a human.

The babies cuddling together! How precious!

Goals & Love of Life

Since this is only my 2nd real blog , I have several thing I want to say & several pictures to update before my break..

.. I have def. figured out I have MAJOR goals for myself since this Leg Break & time off:
one..I am glad I moved into my parents house so I can save up money as soon as I graduate & get into a salon that I love & making good money..
two..I want to be able to buy a house when I am 25 & make SMART decisions with my money..
three..I want to give back to my community as soon as i have my legs..
FOUR..I "Supposedly" have an 8 month leg recovery I AM going to make it 4 to 5 months at the MOST....

Here are some pictures me & my friend Omar took on our Adventure day to HORSEPENS 40 & at the top of Birmingham:

Omar took a picture of me laying down on a rock at Pens



I love that we are out of focus!!!



I am proud of myself, I have become so much more independent & physically & mentally stronger!

Sometimes just  LISTENING means way more than giving annoying advice or stupid excuses.

Why this blog came to be..

The older I get & the older the rest of us get the more we start to fade away, move off, and somewhat fall apart. The older I get, the more I lose my memory & wish I could remember even everyday basics and little daily life adventures.. I haven't had a blog in years. And my last blog was almost a decade ago and it was a "he said-she said" kind of blog, all about drama!

So Here is my FIRST real and TRUE blog as a young adult..

My niece's 2nd birthday was held at my house this past weekend. Summer has become such a big girl & I heard her say my "somewhat" name for the first time which is, "B".. which I hope she will always call me that.

[Our pool was packed with about 15 people atleast and that is the first time our pool has had that many people in there..]


 It was also the first time I could fully put my right foot in the water.. I broke it night bouldering almost 3 weeks ago Sunday! I can already move it. Its suppose to be an 8 month recovery and I am determined to make it 3 to 4!!!!

 I am NO longer scared!....to climb any heights, or do anything I want to accomplish! I am ready to fully get in gear for my life, and this just makes me want to push myself harder & harder and set the biggest goals possible for myself! Everything will change and I will be living proof!