I wish I could say "no thank you" to responsibilities. I would love to be able to see the world for what it is. Do we honestly say "we are living" by conforming to a job & every day routines that we have been doing for years. instead of wanting to see things that matter. Some will think I'm immature or crazy for even thinking such a thing. Regardless, I want to travel, meet amazing people, & see the world for what it really is. I wouldn't restrict myself to calling myself a 'dreamer' because honestly, it's so much more to me than that. I feel like it's more of a realistic thought personally. We as humans have narrowed life down to money.. Constantly I hear, "he got me flowers" or "she bought me this", is this really what matters in an intimate relationship?! Maybe I have no room to judge since I'm not in a relationship; but it seems silly to me. I guess I'm strolling off subject because I am not even talking about relationships in this whole spill I am giving. I am narrowing it down to what I believe should matter.
I want experiences, not materialistic things.
So here are somethings I have recently seen that keep myself "in-check" with what matters. (TRUE happiness is a CHOICE. & Personal reactions to ANY situation is a CHOICE! Negative reactions result as a Negative person! And I am proud to say, I have been a negative person in the past & I made conscious decision to change. & have become a stronger, happier, positive person who just wants to LIVE)
This is what make me want to live without responsibilities. I want to explore..everything! My goal is to always keep my free spirit mind set!
This one below should keep anyone in check that.. When you complain about "how horrible your life is" & "how you think it was the 'worst day ever' " & so on, remember this video: 'LIVE DAY-TO-DAY' Please click on the link & watch the video. I personally believe its powerful!
i feel like i have done alot of waiting, waiting, & more waiting.
I simply can not wait to be able to listen to my music in my car. I hope as soon as my foot gets better that I will drive for hours and listen to countless songs!
Right when I graduated high school, I was scared as could be, as was everyone. Everything from the friends to the daily rountine of high school so something I had so accepted and at the time claimed I was ready to give up. I can't believe three years has already flown by and as much as I am ashamed to say I have not done half of as much as I wanted to accomplish within this past three years. I thought the drama would be over and done with and I accidentally start it without thinking at all, it gets taken out of contexts..I say the wrong things and then it gets all jumbled up in my face. I thought I had found someone with a deep connection and its turned into an arguing fisaco, pulling people in i never thought had anything to do with it. People will always judge and has some thought or judgemental opinion of me & Im over it. I am sick of knowing a huge number of people in Birmingham, I need a new scene. I feel like I can I am missing people that will never come back and its time I fully accept it and live my life like I would if they were still here! I have no idea what the hell I want anymore. I use to know every detail about myself and the details just keep changing and I can not figure out who I am. I get pulled into letting other people judge me that don't know me at all or my steps in life it has taken me to get to this point. I need a breather from people, responsibility, and anything that leads me to negative thoughts.
I do know I need to leave alabama, and get out of this box I have confined myself to. I want to feel the world, not just live it. I am sick of confined to being in my early 20's and just staying in my southern coulture. I want to be out of my box. I'm getting ready to move to the next biggest chapter of my life! And I want to do it with ONLY the people that have stuck by me through all the my life! I am excited, scared, and proud of myself for finally making this decision with myself & my family. It will be awhile before I can accomplish leaving but as soon as I can walk, I am walking out of Alabama with a head held high knowing I lived to the fullest here and its time to experience something different and new. I am finally ready! I have had little things that have made me realize I need to move on. I've lived in the same 20 mile radius my whole life, and I am finally adult and can make my own decisions and here it is!
